Love Me in the Dark.

Love me in the darkest places of my heart
Where polite niceties disappear
And what is left are crude, evil thoughts
That ought not see the light of day

Love me when I am weak
When I cave into my basest desires
And show a side of me
The world will never accept

Love me for things unknown
The parts of me that lie hidden
Underneath the rainbows and smiles
Things I am afraid disclose

Love me for my failures
When my heart calls out to you
Yet shrinks back in fear
Because it recognises its ugliness

Love me in spite of
My brokenness
My neediness
My hopelessness

When I am unlovable
That is when I need you to love me most

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Of Love and Friend Zones.

Help!  I’m in love with my (guy) best friend.

If this is you, then you probably understand how I’ve felt at some point in my life.  Because I’m a girl, I really had to just sit and wait, hoping that my friend will wake up and realise he’s in love with me, too.… Read more

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To the Husband I Never Had.

All those nights living without you taught me to surrender my heart to God.  But it has taught me something else.  It taught me to give you up.

I had come face to face with the reality that you were never mine.  … Read more

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Un-marriageable.

About two months ago, I heard a conversation that shook me to the core.  All it took was one line.

“Who’d want to marry you?” a male voice had said.

It was spoken in jest, and it was not even directed at me.  … Read more

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Happy Ever After.

This will sound jaded – it may even come as a shock to some – but there is no such thing as happily ever after.  At least, not in the conventional definition.  By conventional, I mean boy-meets-girl story that ends in marriage, “and they lived happily ever after.”  … Read more

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Better.

In my current saga of getting over what-could-have-been, I am coming to realise a few things.  I had begun to settle.  And although it seemed like he was good enough, I actually deserve better.

I deserve better than a man who seemed to fit the criteria, but actually was just someone who happened to be available.… Read more

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